Sometimes I feel like angels are very close, watching me.

The Real Me

Sometimes, while Niya naps and the minutes drift by I find my mind reflecting on the past. I retrace my steps, wonder at the small things that do not matter, like the job I quit a while back, the books I should have written… At times like this when the world is quiet and all…

Hope for Our Women

I can’t sleep. My heart is heavy. I’ve tried to block the horrors of the news from seeping in but my heart is remembering. A fifteen year old girl is dead and so many more of our women here in Jamaica and across the world are suffering.

In Stillness of the Night

The lights are out for the first time since my return to Jamaica. Suddenly I can hear the insects singing in the night. The stillness is frightening and yet I can feel my heart no longer a distant drum.

The Strength of a Mother

I am usually very happy so when the sadness hit me late last night I felt a bit overwhelmed. It was like staring into the darkness, where there was no beginning or end… I am writing this post to clear my head. I am praying for strength to bear the burdens only mothers know.

Hard Times Can Be the Best Times

When’s the last time you did something really hard? The kind that makes you grit your teeth as your muscles strain to move mountains. Hard times are usually the most opportunity-rich moments —  the ones that, if we let them, prove we are stronger than we first thought. Let me tell you about my friend.

What I Wish Those Mothers Had Told Me

It all started when I was about 7 months pregnant. Mothers I knew, full of warnings and words of wisdom, began texting and calling. Most of the warnings related to the horrors of childbirth (like this relative who told me she got 30 stitches! Another warned me of unexpected bowel movements). As if that wasn’t…

They Say I Have Spoilt You

You have cried for too long i swoop in, my arms under you put you against the pillow of my breasts, thinking “i am a bad mother” you do not care as you stare suckle, breathe, sleep. They say i have spoilt you You are too used to my arms, the scent of rose-water breast…

A Season to Shine: Goodbyes and New Beginnings

Outside is wet with snow. The kind that makes you shiver down to the bone. I tell myself I won’t miss it: the iciness of wind chills, the trees as bare as twigs. I won’t miss the overrated powder that melts into mud as I squish-squish through… But inside, my heart is aching in this…

5 Ways to Live a More Abundant Life in 2017

  While looking back at 2016, or years prior to that, it may be easy to get frustrated with life. But today is your chance to start anew, learn from your past experiences (and mistakes) and live the abundant life you were born to enjoy! Whatever your challenges, you can live a more abundant life…

40 Days of Motherhood

It’s been 40 days since I gave birth. My sisters held my legs while I pushed. Contractions were a heavy pressure in my pelvic instead of excruciating pain thanks to an epidural. Niya was ready to be born. After pushing less than 30 mins, she appeared — a beautiful, wrinkle-free baby, head full of hair,…